Well, it's nothing new - everybody knows that Geminis have two sides to themselves. I personally think, whether by choice or otherwise, everybody does live life with different sides of themselves potrayed. It's just that maybe in Geminis, it's more pronounced and apparent.
Everybody in my family knows I am the quiet one. Just like my late beloved mum, who did not talk much but showed an undescribable amount of love and sacrifice for her children. I still remember her meals, very sparing, very minimal because she had saved the best parts of whatever she cooked for me and my siblings. This she had done till I was about 27 when she passed on from pancreatic cancer.
A while ago, I noticed that Chee Wai (another Gemini) sends SMSs in the same style as mine. You see, nowadays people would send their SMSs which looked something like this -
Hihi wat time we mtg at e cinema?Hv u book e tix yet?Call u when I reach ok.C ya!
But what Chee Wai and me would type into our handphones would be -
Hihi! What time will we be meeting at the cinema? Have you booked the tickets yet? I will call you when I reach, ok? See you...
Yes, yes. Proper grammar and all. Well, I don't know about Chee Wai (maybe he's a perfectionist) but my rationale would be the reciepient will understand the message faster because she or he does not have to guess what the words are. You see, the human brain does not have to see the whole word, only the front and back letters BUT as long as the other letters exist in between.
So, you see? It's all about the other party. I don't mind typing (it helps that I type lightning fast too. Hee hee...) and I personally find it difficult to read the 'non-proper' version. Don't know why but, hey - I'm getting used to it. I used to think it was a bastardization of the English language though - a bi-product of the lazy Y generation which is so used to being spoon fed but never returning the favour. Hahahahah!!!
Nowadays, I try to think more for myself. You know I'm the type who really cannot do things alone. Some of my friends can just hang out at Coffee Bean alone or have dinner alone, hell one of them even told me she goes to the cinema alone sometimes!! I can't ever do that. I'll really feel funny.
Well, before I digress further (I think I can write a whole book if I rant on and on) - I'm just really afraid of the fact that maybe I really do place more importance on my friends than family. At home, I'm quite the loner and I don't really talk to my siblings but at work and with friends, I can be quite loud. But I rarely forget about my family, I always make it a point to attend to the gatherings during special ocassions. It's more entertaining, with the fact that my stepmother's side of the family is ultra loud and boisterous. I'd always just sit back and watch. It's like watching a drama or a sitcom sometimes.
Ok, I really should focus on myself more. I'm doing it already, spending more time and money for the things that make me happy - my hobbies and stuff. I used to sacrifice a lot for the family before, during the times when my siblings were still very young, my elder brother had some irresponsible times and my father was away. Now, it's my turn to live life.
Hopefully, I get to enjoy much before I make that all time important life-changing decision to get married. I do dread that idea of sharing my personal space but I hope to have all that changed when I do meet The One.
Hee hee....
